It's too funny. Last night we went to a 70th and we both found people we knew. It's a true adage when they say you never know who someone is.
I had actually met the birthday boy's daughter the Future of Work conference a few months back. Then LEA saw a woman he knows from work. During that conversation, I realized I knew her daughter!
I can't believe how small Australia is.
Even to the point, where KB lives on Heath Ledger's dad's street. Like at anytime, Michelle Williams could be visiting and I could run into her..... #californiadreaming
All of that aside LEA and I had a wonderful night. Our connection was strong. From his smile to his easy laugh. I felt like "today." He easily wrapped his arms around me and would rest his hand on my butt. It was so much like when we first started dating. It makes me ache oh so much for what I know is possible for us.
I have such a hard time understanding if I'm attached to him or if its love. I guess that's the role of the psychologist to help me discover. i want it to be love. I want both of us to love each other.
Last night he said wanted to cuddle. Snuggle and make love. he didn't want it to fall asleep. he wanted to appreciate the moment in what we were doing there under the blankets. I told him its the way it should be, he should come to me to see if I can fulfill his needs, before he retreats into his darkness. He should use me as energy to refill. I know he misses me and mostly, I know he loves me. I know this. He just has to come out of his shell. I just hope he does it before its too late.
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