I don't feel desperate to find a new partner. I do know that I'll find someone new - but I don't want to have to. I'm keen to keep this relationship, but improve it.
I'm desperate to explore why and understand how he ticks, but I need to accept I will never know.
My name is Natasha and I've just turned 33. I'm recently single and I don't want to be.
I don't want to be with just anyone, I want to be with my one. At the end of the day though, I can really just hang out with anyone.
I'm not new to blogging, but this blog is new. I'm excited to be writing again, But I hate that I need this outlet again. I do understand that some of the issues I have to sit with is the fact he says he wanted to be with me, yet we don't do anything. He states we're both lazy and when I've suggested we do things, his zero interest in doing anything with me at all.
It doesn't match up and it bugs me. Bothers me to no end, but no point in raising it I guess.
I have a very real understanding how alone I'm going to be once I move out of this apartment. Its scary. When I think about it. I'm devastated. I feel overwhelmed with the idea of being alone.
Lean into the discomfort.
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